22-07-07
My mother came and told me to give her $200.
How am I supposed to pay with my $800++ pay
and you are not paying a single cent for my
Bangkok trip, transport, food, usage of handphone?
I can't even save a single cent for my L.A.M.D.A
and the money to support myself in the future!
You wanted me to do my part as a working adult,
yet you don't allow me to ton, set curfew,
I JUST HATE TO GO HOME!
and she ignored me for the whole day.

At night, go The Warren play mahjong with LOW PROFILE-d.
Cheered myself up, telling myself to earn something back.
End up I didn't win anything. Only one stupid "ji-wu" (W.T.H)
Lost a total for $7 in north, south, east. Money fly FLY FLY

23-07-07
Morning wake up
- auntie come a lot (W.T.H)
- default my checkup
(I knew I had to stay in hospital)

Noon fetch sister
- drizzling on th way (Whatever)
- drank soup for lunch
(I hate Char Siew can!)

Afternoon teach kids
- Every students present (3hr nightmare)
- Layss sms asked if i wanna go LAN.
She don't wan to go so she asked me if i wan.
Then I say I don't want go if she nv go.
So I continued teaching then she sms me
Say Roy asked me cab down. I only had $7.
Layss say he pay. Ok, I continued my lesson.
Then after lesson she called me and told me to take 502.
I told her that the residents told me 502 will take 1 hr+.
She said 502 is express bus and it won't take long.
Then she took me Roy gave him $10 for us to use in LAN.
ok, so I walked all the way from st73 to Gek Poh.
I miss the bus. Waited for 1/2 hour.
Car sick, menus cramp, hunger and gastric all come.
And the bus trip was fucking long can!
it took 40 min to travel frm Jurong West to East!
And it took a total of 70 mins to reach Victoria Street!
30 mins + 70 mins = 100 mins *faints*
Then I head to eat first. Super bad mood.
Ate very slowly, 8.30 then go LAN find them.
Go in le, only left one hour. Don't know what to do,
so I just surf luh. Then Ray keep encouraging me to play Audition.
2nd time then I agree. Then he helped me sign in as "AI XIN"
Then he helped me enter the room.
Kor saw me enter then he said happily:"Eh, ZOMBIE~"
Then I enter le, Layss asked:"Who's AI XIN?"
Then I said "AI XIN is me". then after that,
Kor asked "WHO's AI XIN?" I tot the LAN shop was too noisy
and I don't want to repeat again so I raised my voice"it's me!"
Then Kor misunderstood that I'm yelling at him.

Ok, it was a misunderstanding after all right.
You saw me enter audition, i tot all shld know who i am.
And do I have attitude problem?
A.P enough to show attitude for no reason.
If yes, I'm sorry I didn't know I was like that.
I tot I kept num for a lot of things.
Alrdy keeping so much things quietly make me someone with A.P
Can you imagine if I speak everything out of mind? I'll be CONDEMNED!
It seemed that nth I had done was right. Yes, nothing.

After that gg off le, I can't take it.
I dug out $2 ++ and left the Lan shop.
Layss came after me and asked me what's wrong?
I finally threw my temper and shouted at Prinsep.
And I dropped my first tear, first tear with LOW PROFILE-d.
If you know me, I would only cry in movies or at home.
If I cry in public, there is really something wrong!

Monster and Layss paid for the cab and we went home.
I could say that there was no ending in my tear-fall.
In my life, the last friend who made me cry was CPS.
And now, it's unexpectedly you.

I'm really tired of all. I was never plastic to you.
And now you misunderstood me, I'm devastated.
I couldn't sleep the whole night till the sun is out
when my mother came and woke my sisters up,
I pretended to sleep and I really fell asleep.
Before I could, I smsed you a apology.
An apology I tot for the whole night.
I wanna so much to restore friendship,
esp when you are my good kor.

24-07-07
Linda's call @ 11 woke me up.
She told me I'm supposed to bring home all books
and write a report for all my students.
then she told me Teck Whye de childcare confirm I teach.
but it was on Thursdays. My only off day.
So I sms my cousin's husband's sister and told her that
I can only work weekend for her at TAKA.
Luckily she said can. Although $5.50 per hour,
at least got commission. I don't know how much.
And it's only an extra income for me. For savings and stuff.

Now my sister lost her book and vents it on me.
Come on, I'm expecting more.
I told her to tell her teacher that I accidentally
took her book when I was headin for work.
Then my sister cried and begged me to write letter.
LOLS. How can write letter when I'm "not at home" right?
I ignored her and just wrote my hp number on a post it
and ask her teacher to call me afterwards.


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It is really a terrible week.
I don't want to see myself brk dwn.
I don't want to see LOW PROFILE-d separated.
I don't want to lose a good brother (like you).
I'm expecting more to come.
What could be worse?


My horoscope in TEENAGE said that I would lose a friend.
And told me to let go. I prayed so hard it wasn't you.