Look at Andy and my conservation.
LOLS. Inner beauty? LOLS.


I felt a bit left out by my clique of friends.
Not really they left me, partly cos I left myself out.
Because of stupid curfew, stupid health problem, stupid financial state& job.

Because of my recent curfew, I had to reach home bfore 11.
Sians, at home nothing to do also what.
Because of stupid health problem,
can't catch up with them for around 2 weeks?
Because of stupid financial state,
I can't travel because my parents won't give me money to go out.
Because of my current job,
(It located at Jurong IBP)it's so inconvinent to travel to town.

I like don't know what's going on among my friends.
Now Layss very close with Yunyun, Terry that side de pple.
And I'm still here trying to figure who is who.
There's nothing for me to be jealous about.
Yes, I know, I don't want to be high profile also.
And seriously I don't see any reason why they would wanna know me.
Come on, i'm one of the to-be-forgotten-bunch-of-pathetic-FAT-souls.

I told Irene that's also a good thing.
No one get close to you over you being high profile.
Standing in the 3rd person's view,
You can see true colours more.
Whether true friends backstab, make fun of you behind your back.
YOU SEE EVERYTHING CLEARLY.

But the bad thing is,
cos u are not-so-welcomed, you had to tolerate.
With? Everything, anything, never nothing.
People laugh/mock/scold/vent anger on you,
you don't even have the power to defend.
Who are we? Why must we talk when we are to be forgotten?
We should just shut our f-ing mouths and bang the wall!

And we can't cry out. WE CANNOT!

Everything must..... tolerate!
Cry also must cry behind people's back.
So ugly liao, got people wanna be friends with you,
den treaure la, still ask for people's sympathy.

What else I haven't been doing?
Offering advices and be there for friends.
I had done everything in true friendship but GOD gave me NOTHING!
Pathetic looks + Horrible figure = NOTHING!
What is so horrible about me that no one wanna befriend me?
What is so bad about me that they treat me as a passerby?
What is the problem about me that I can't get as much friends as my clique?

Ok, I'll take it as a motivation to change.
Change of my figure, looks, everything,
BUT I will be plastic to everyone I know.
That was how I'm treated, please enter my stinky shoe
& know how terrible I feel now in this state.
I won't give a damn abt anyone anymore
when I don't even get basic respect back.
It's not for human rights.
It's for the to-be-forgotten-bunch-of-pathetic-fat-souls' rights.
I'll prove to those people who mocked at me bfore,
to let them have a taste of what's called alone.
WE UGLY,FAT PEOPLE HAVE THE POWER OF CHOICE TOO ONE DAY!
* althoughI don't know if I really have the heart to do this to all my friends.

I believe I've done alot for friendship,
more than I've done for my family.
I only wanted true friendship in return,
not anything else...


* Sorry for being EMO.
I dono why also.
Don't ask me anything.
I won't speak.
That's the new ZOMBIE.