Blog entries from 27/02/07 to 05/09/08

shifted

2008-09-08T01:59:00.001+08:00

www.unexplainablezombie.blogspot.com

do relink, thank you (:

photosand photos coming!

2008-09-05T12:55:00.002+08:00

I FINALLY GOT MYSELF A CAMERA!
& IT HAS MP3 FUNCTIONS!

photosand photos coming!

2008-09-05T12:55:00.001+08:00

I FINALLY GOT MYSELF A CAMERA!
& IT HAS MP3 FUNCTIONS!

that hug was love..

2008-08-30T00:55:00.012+08:00

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,batman

ai wo de lao po.. =) ,batman

2008-08-26T23:37:00.006+08:00

Farewell to my wonderful work friends (:

Baby did this for me last month anniversary; it's so so sweet of her. Art was never her strength; she did a wonderful birthday for me, and the above wonderful gift. It sounds crazy how we got together. She couldn't believe it either. Everything felt like we had to be together to brave through hardships & live together for the days of our future..

by left we ended up together. Time spend tgt were really short but all these are wonderful memories.. =)

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hmm.. this ben ben lao po typed alot ben ben thingy.. =(
above is only portion of her post.. yah.. some deleted by mi.. coz its untrue!!
everythings okay now i hope.. =)
wan sui to wo men bu ke si yi de ai qin!!! =)

,batman

march of our love

2008-08-22T09:04:00.005+08:00

they missed him, I prayed hard u wasnt feelin th same..
nights u burned midnight oil.. sleepin bside you,
wakin up on& off, see you sleep, study, sleep study..
i wished i could give u a few of my hours,
cuz' 24 doesnt seemed enough of u..

haven't been going out with you except neighbourhood areas,
glad today is ur last paper& my off day is on a weekend! 'hurray!
gtg, will be back or updates(:

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lao po.. ur thinkin too much.. nth of tat sort.. dun think of things
that wont happen okay??
and thanks for accompanying mi that weekk..!
love u!

,batman

sad side of us

2008-08-17T00:50:00.002+08:00

ur probably whipping mad at me for ignoring u
ever since we reached ur house 1/2hr ago..
Our 2 months seemed like 2 years together,
we had so many memories together...

Startin to feel that threat coming to me,
yes, everyone's gonna prefer him to me..
ur family, ur cousins, ur sister, ur frenz..
I jus feel so down, I'd been holding back my tears so hard,
i feel so useless....

Flyer~

2008-08-11T19:21:00.012+08:00

It's Flyer time!

$29.50 per trip, definitely worth it! &of course it's th best trip cuz' i board it with Baby! Everything was wonderful, even th day after i board until.. My new incharge told me there were dirty things inside th capsule. It's like OMG..!! Okok, *mouth sealed.

Few days later went out with Grace, Huihui, Huiru &Kelvin! To IMM's fishspa! $13 per 1/2hour, it's a reasonable rate so we paid and headed to th pool. 2 pools, one contains fish that sucks, one contain fish that bites. So we will choose that one that sucks. everyone happily put in, only ME! After 20 minutes, I put in, 1 sec later I take out, omg it's disgusting!! Cannot! Takbulaytahan!

EWWWWWWWW~!

Rainbow of kisses

2008-08-04T10:58:00.000+08:00

Headed PizzaHut@ Lot 1 before heading to Taka's toyfair last week with Baby, Ben & Vicki. Baby & I had th cravin' for cheese so we ordered th latest pizza they had. Oh my god, it's so not nice at all. on Tv, they showed the cheese stretched when they pulled it.. We tried but th hotdog in it come off ._____.

* updated 04/08/08
At Baby's house now (: She's cooking for me &&I'm using her lappy to check Singapore Flyer details! Heading there later cuz' tmr's our 2th month anniversary. I wished for years.. hahahas,

Baby, I love you!

爱我好吗?

2008-07-18T10:28:00.000+08:00

爱我好吗
虽然收敛了许多的情感,
还是泄漏了我的不安,
于是你开始冷淡,
我也开始问自己该怎么办?
如果你知道我的遗憾,
千万不要再不以为然,
我的生活已经混乱,
到处飘流却始终靠不了岸.
这是我最后,最美,最真,最心碎的留言.
喔....爱我好吗?
我愿意让伤心再来一遍,
只要你留一个位置给我,
哪怕是在你心中最容易被忽略的角落.
喔...爱我好吗?
我愿意让伤心再来一遍,
只要你留一个位置给我,
哪怕是在你心中最容易被忽略的角落.
如果你知道我的遗憾,
千万不要再不以为然,
我的生活已经混乱,
到处飘流却始终靠不了岸.
这是我最后,最美,最真,最心碎的留言.
喔....爱我好吗?
我愿意让伤心再来一遍,
只要你留一个位置给我,
哪怕是在你心中最容易被忽略的角落.
喔...爱我好吗?
我愿意让伤心再来一遍,
只要你留一个位置给我,
哪怕是在你心中最容易被忽略的角落.
喔...爱我好吗?
我愿意让伤心再来一遍,
只要你留一个位置给我,
哪怕是在你心中最容易被忽略的角落

Caught THE DARK KNIGHT with Batman(my Baby) at Lot One. The Movie was a long and good one of 153 minutes. We bought 8.30pm tickets at 3pm and 30% of the seats are taken up already. The movie is really a good one, rated PG(should be rated NC16) with gross images(esp Joker's face). Honestly I'd never watched any of Batman's movie before so it's an eye opener for me ;D My rating is 4/5 stars.

Finally after all these while, Baby asked me to be her girlfriend officially. Of course I accepted! After wandering around, love comes&& u need not go find it yourself! Baby used to be only a friend beside me for so long until that feelin struck &&we got in love.

Dear Baby,
I know my temper has been really bad nowadays. I can't stop making u get worried for me. Maybe I'm just ur childish, unthoughtful& petty wife. Since we are now officially together, I will work hard to be a better girlfriend then before. Treat my family better, control my temper, try to spend more time with you, learn to cook for you, stop hurting myself, stop making u worried.. I wanna have more of ur nice ai xin Maggie Mee, ai xin porridge, Cheese omelette.. We shall head to SingFlyer soon, more of IKEA's shopping&food treat.. You know I'm stressed up, I'm a paranoid sicko; so do pardon me if I did ignored ur feelin'.. I'm sorry for every little I did that hurt u intentially or unintentially.. Yes, the feelin' isn't wrong. Everything feels right when im with you. I love you Baby.. 爱我好吗?

Ur sillyhead,
xoxo.

first month first love first kiss

2008-07-06T10:35:00.000+08:00

SAKAE buffet with loves (:
WAAAAA~ I love BATMAN ;d

im&luvm, vvm (:

2008-07-02T12:58:00.001+08:00

It's IKEA, baby (:

Gourmet!

Batman fall down on th way to meet me for lunch.
Ouch. Now it's infected. Feel that pain?

Went on double dates. Me& Batman. Vicki & ____ (:
Vicki and me did this on our leg ;D

Somethings happened but u know what?
It sounds crazy to others but im gonna love you more.
Hold on to me. Cuz' you're really that important (:
I love you

wedding/birthday

2008-06-28T12:42:00.000+08:00

It's Cousin XinYi's wedding on 25 June. She's so pretty, just like a lil princess! The wedding was almost perfect & it's great to see cousins & relatives over there! More photos to be uploaded..!

26 June was my bday. It's also work day. Didn't take off cuz' no special celebration going on. However, working friends, Zihui, Marc& Junhe surprised me with a dark chocolate cake!

I made my wish and blew the candles off. I looked up & I saw Batman& gang. Vicki was carrying a litted-up cake and they came into th shop with th classic birthday song! Look at th 2 cakes!

Thanks people!

After work, headed to Batman's house tgt with Ming. Was hungry, so Batman cooked maggi mee for me. She took a long time and it's because of this!

Thank you so so much for everything. Esp Batman. Thank God for having u around. I wanna stickwithu (: ilu (:

4minutes to save the world or fu*k the floor?

2008-06-28T12:06:00.000+08:00

The Official Video for 4Minutes
By Madonna ft Jutsin Tim.& Timbaland

It's sad to receive damn lots of negative comments. Stuff like "She's old enough to be his mum!", "She's amazing.. Amazingly UGLY!". Like WTH? I mean at th age of 50, can u do this? Shut up if you can't! I'm not really a fan of Madonna, but I think she simply rocks! &If im not wrong, this is her last album, I think she'd ended it well !

18th Birthday Humour

2008-06-26T12:36:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday
To Myself!

You know what? The previous fashion idea of going Bohemium is failing! Cuz' I just got my hair dyed. Same areas highlighted, same base-Purple Black but mostly importantly, it's a brighter red!

I'm still working today *pouts mouth (F3) but I'm glad I'd received my best birthday gift from Batman! It's a handmade card where a batman logo& greetings glow in th dark! Chipped it up at my chipboard beside my bed. Every morning wake up, I'll "see" Batman! When I sleep, I'll still "see" Batman!

Eating my birthday mee sua now ;D 18 already, can club already! I'm heading PLAY this friday with Sadness Kor. Anybody wants to join, just join ba (: But I can't smoke ): Batman says my legal age is 99 ):

More photos to be uploaded from my cousin's wedding (:

our story's so unbelievable..
don't you think so?

stickwithyou

2008-06-21T11:59:00.000+08:00

Memories to be kept. A nice candid one. Thanks Ben.

All the things she said..

2008-06-17T12:18:00.000+08:00

Pretty SiPei got her hair extend! Can see that she looks really good in it &she loves it alot! I wanna extend too! But to those freakin' long lengths. How cool!

Photos taken during break time with her in Lot One Level4 toilet. Toilet Cam-Whores! Close ever since first meet up to Warehouse, that's all. How amazing we would actually be great friends!

Don't ask me why she's wearing sunglasses. I don't want to remind myself.

Monday Blues to Kbox with Batman & clique (: There were Vicki, Shu Ying, Si Ming && Ben. Wanted to go PartyWorld but we ended up going K-student @ Cineleisure. Can't really say it's a happy trip but it's an enjoyable one. At least we get to mix outside Teck Whye. Lols. At night headed to BPP's Streets for dinner then Teck Whye Mac to chill. Off home to sleep after that..
Photos taken:

你就是我的非卖品）：

Zombie=nothing

2008-06-15T02:15:00.000+08:00

爱没有答案
再倔强再不放到最后被看穿一个人逞强
说不痛是骗人
我不再隐瞒爱的伤痕
不舍转过身不必回头的承认
非卖品是爱最美的灵魂..

Not gonna be that me from 5th June anymore..

Atrium is love ;D

2008-06-12T08:56:00.000+08:00

First day of Atrium! With SiPei && Rain (: Was really excited! Was supposed to take mc bcuz' of my swollen ankle. But shop not enough pple, came back and worked 2-6, signed out at 7.45pm. Meet up with Batman & group headed Imm. Then headed home..

Cats are love man (: Black is Zaizai, White is Bi Ti. Actually we had no idea how to differentiate female or male cats. Anyway, they are wonderful kittens. Esp my Bi Ti, I just merely sayang her and she jumped to my lap and rest on it. After that our Cat Mother, Si Ming, sayang her too and she went over to her lap, how cute? (: Bi Ti ended off sleeping on SiMing's bag. We bought Bi Ti to blk 117.. And she disappeared the next day...........

Th following days were fun as well with Alicia, Joey, WeiShan, Jac.. not forgetting our outlet's HuiHui and Calvin. More to come ((:

i love batman?

2008-06-08T02:06:00.000+08:00

fucked up. nbcb.

2008-06-07T03:06:00.000+08:00

It's stupid to start a post with this damnass title. Super fucked up. Someone jus raised his voice at me after he'd gotten a new gf. Like what th fuck? U told me u loved me for 2 years, weeks after we broke up, u got a new gf? Claiming how much u loved her whatever shit la. I don't mean to tarnish ur image but th way u replied me on th call is super fucking attitude. "Anything la!" Nbcb. Go do whatever u want. You noe what? I'm so enjoying my life as a PL now. Glad to see ur true colours, &thank god I put an end to ur trap after 5 days of being together. (Expected spams in my tagboard -.-'')

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I'm missing so many of my outside friends.. how how how.. I wished I could see them often & talk to them everyday..

SADNESS KOR
I rmb clearly I became ur godsis during ur birthday last year. Joining into SnK, Ip Zone; ur concern for me had a great impact to my worklife (: & also ur advices of life. You never failed to pick up my calls when I'm down. You speak up for me. Yes, I might not ur best sister but you're definitely my best bro, Love you ;D

Harper
Started out as a acquaintance when mixing with th AJ group. Became closer after I got to know Sadness Kor. He's someone who is str8forward and he really woke me up when his words. Thank you, ur words might have hurt me(telling me how stupid I'm), nevertheless, I'm seeing the whole picture now, love you ;D

RayRay
Yes, I love Rayray! This friendly guy! Another friend who cares very much for me, wakin me up with his words. Accompanying me. Encouraging me in Audition. Thank you so so much, love you ;D

Jeff(My Dar Darling)
Weird to see him here? Forgotten when we got close. Hmm, th previous trip back to Singapore in a KTV session. Crazy talks at MSN. He's gonna be a great help to me in no time. Love you ;D

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Nicole Jie
Became her godsis the same time as Sadness. We really really seldom meet up. In fact I'd seen her less than 15 times! She's busy with her own enterprise & I hope she would prosper in it. Good luck. Thanks for all that girl talk and advices. Love you ;D

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Hais , I'm still waiting for someone to reply me. Sms me halfway gone. Not sure if she'd fallen asleep like I always do when I sms her at night (: That someone who pissed me off; 是谁来的？Cuz' now I'm BATMAN's gf! Who's BATMAN? Can't reveal. It's not an official r/s la. Friends who know who's BATMAN, we are not together. Just acting like one? Hahahahaas. So QAD(BATMANknows what it means) BATMAN Bf, I'm still waiting for ur reply la; don't suddenly sms halfway gone althou it's nth important ;@

Yours truly,
QAD BATMAN's Gf (:

Japanese Pizzzaaaaaa

2008-06-05T09:54:00.000+08:00

The Pasar Malam beside Lot One is luring me with all sorts of wonderful food! Ramily Burger, Sharkfin Soup, Cheese Tofu, Bird's nest... && now my new craze:

JAPANESE PIZZA!

Can't seemed to find any information relating th Japanese Pizza they selling. No worries, it's not sinful. It's grilled the same way Ramily Burger is grilled. Oil used only at th last part to prevent pizza frm sticking to th surface. And th pizza itself is not flour! It's veggies!

I swear im gonna take a photo of it after during my break time at work (: Next week's Atrium again. Might not have time to meet a lot of friends ;(( But i swear im gonna head down to MNG for sale! Cos all my besties are working there! See you guys!

prettycure medicure?Lol(i don't watch this!)

2008-06-02T10:57:00.000+08:00

The title of this post is so random. It's because I'm so happy that my nails are growing! Not that my nails can't grow last time but i tend to bite it off as piano teachers won't allow. But now that I'm not studying music anymore, I can grow long nails! Been trying to go for more medicure to stop myself from biting nails. Hopefully it helps!

Kangli's last day & we bought cake for farewell "celebration". It's something sad though. Then yesterday was last day of Atrium. But it's starting again next week. Had been going to QAD's house everynight for short chats&& playing with her cousins and siblings..

When will i ever get close to my siblings?
* question-mark.

Updates woes :s

2008-05-27T14:15:00.000+08:00

Finally finished editing this photo. My computer's going crazy and I had to redo everything from the start in Photoshop. Damn it. Now it's done (:

Indeed a tiring week with my atrium sales and its driving me crazy. Stress from myself, work, friends, family is making me nuts. The feeling to be deceived never felt good. I know, although I had never loved you, it doesn't give u any right to lie to me(even after the breakup). Wtf. ShuYing was right, I happened to meet all sorts of weird pple in this world. But why me? It's shitty enough. Some of my friends called my life is "HAPPENING", but you know what I think?
My life = SHIT!

Met up with Ying few days ago. Chilled at Clarke Quay the whole outing. Starbucks @ Central first; discussion of our blogshop name and all possible reactions of public. Did thorough animations, topic, layout planning. Then it was a girls' talk time over there along Singapore River. Seeing some theme-based boats passing by. Heart-to-heart chat, personality test and all.. I did had a great time. Hope to see Ying again for our next blogshop meetup &girls' talk! ;D

1/2 morning today, Off tmr. how wonderful? ;D

2008-05-25T02:12:00.000+08:00

1/2 Morning at work today. I believe Marc had a horrible day! Our fax machine spoilt, his handphone's battery running low, not enough sleep and our POS keep having problems. Poor thing. Guess he's in foul mood today cuz' it's his FULL shift also!

Actually meeting the J8 girls at AMK Hub today. Roy wasn't feelin well cuz' he had back to back 4 full shifts and tmr's his full shift also! I gave it a miss as well and headed to LUMOUNT to find SiMing. Bought Chocolate Dipped Marsh Mallows && Strawberry chocolate muffins from there and guess what? I ate a lot of other finger food as well.

I'm damn tired now. Thanks Shu Ying for the photos &&im happy im meeting YingYing tmr! See you tmr babe!

I'm turning 18! how exciting!

2008-05-24T01:25:00.003+08:00

Hey people im turning 18 &&im so fking excited!

Photoshop Madnesssssss...!!

2008-05-22T21:13:00.000+08:00

This was the original photo.

After readin some tutorials..

It had a Blue+yellow effect.

A retro effect..

&&this is amazing. I merely missed out some steps in th making of retro
and this effect came out! I like it very much and i think it's th best among 3!

Product of th day:

from this original photo..

To this!
Hope Rain, Kelvin and Shi Pei likes it (:

Anyway I'm having a big big headache now! My cousin's wedding is on 26 June which falls exactly on my birthday! I really don't wish to miss her wedding cuz' I bought that BYSI dress almost because of it! My intial plan was to have a wonderful dinner with my loves &then club at night. But this wedding dinner's sure gonna end at least around 10? I wanted to go Play on a Thursday night as promised to Cowie && Roy. I might just have to put off that idea && go on a Friday night instead. Sians -.-''

I'll be inviting people for the clubbing people. Deinfitely I can't ask those I don't want to see not to go, because Play is opened to public. But I'm just gonna get those people I wanna see on my birthday celebration. Look forward to my invitation card people! (:

save some money dude~!

2008-05-17T23:18:00.000+08:00

For those who don't know what's shuffling? This is Shuffling. Hardstyle Republic is from Malaysia. An online friend showed me this video &she told me.. They are crooked ;D They are so damn cool with those moves. Watch th whole video!

vintage shops are my eye candies ;D

2008-05-16T08:50:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a great outing with Pei, Rain &Kelvin! Cancelled the oringinally see-a-movie plan to a cam-whoring outing! Just look like this! Me and Pei met up first so there are more of our photos ;D

Neoprints to add along from Cineleisure's Pretty in Tokyo ;D

Tired. Headin to work. Tata~

happie recovery mummiee (:

2008-05-15T01:39:00.000+08:00

This is retarded, i know o.O

This is mummie's only entertainment in her ward. Lols.

Brought my "Digital SLR" to entertain her. Can see she's quite entertained!

Mummy's so cute. Just look at the yawning picture. I was halfway thru posing. When she yawned, I clicked w/o realising it. ;S Her operation's done. But she rejected painkillers after her operation &was determine to overcome th pain until she started vomiting. All of us convinced her of taking th injection so thank god she took! Mummy, get well soon(I know it hurts!) =[

retail therapy (:

2008-05-13T01:54:00.000+08:00

How cool this little camera necklace can be! Got it at FOURSKINS for $19.90 (: Never see or heard anyone wearing it; hahahas, hope im th first one!

Was at warehouse again with ShiPei. But this time was at Lion Building; to pack items for Lot One Atrium Sales in 2 weeks time. Signed out at 4.30pm; headed to Marina Square (:

After that we shopped around anywhere we walked to! Fainlly got my first Boyfriend Shirt &a vest. Really like it a lot! guess I'm wearing it often from now ;D Did medicure for $12 too!

So weird mum's not at home. No one to rush me to shut down com, switch off Television, rush me home etc.. Tmr's her operation. Going down to find her early morning. Hope everything goes smoothly for her tmr..

nothin' can get better than knowing more friends!

2008-05-07T00:20:00.000+08:00

It was supposed to be a CWP gathering but ended up only me, Kelvin& Sadness kor turned up ;( Me& Kelvin were late so Kor left us. We had got no where else to go except a place to dine for lunch. So we headed Seoul Garden.

Sad thing was I didn't have a good appettite so I ate only a pathetic amount compared to how much I eat during normal meals. Lol. Spend $27 for a bowl of tomyam jiap ba-lang ingredients and a few chunks of meat. Lols.

Ended up, Kor wasn't really angry, but cuz' he too tired. So he met up with Harper& Rayray they all. When Ice doing medicure, he sleeping. Lol. how adorable can Kor get? ;D Anyway people, this is Harper with his spects!

At night is th usual. Meeting up with my neighbourhood buddies (: This is Shu Ying's younger sister, Isabel. (:

You're bound to think that I'm insane. But I love this dress so much that time I tried in Vivo City. It's the last piece at Lot One. I bought it straight at $69. You can say it's th first dress I ever bought for myself. I believe there's more to come (:

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Spend th whole of Morning shift at Warehouse to select stocks for con to Malaysia with one person from every stall. Made quite a lot of new friends! Like Liyun, Joey & all.. But mostly importantly, I'd made 2 new girlfriends! Rain & Pei ;D 3 of us plus Kelvin clicked so well, we even went jalan jalan after work at Bugis for dinner& window shopping ((: Pictures taken:

I love this 2 lovely girlfriends~!
Tired. Tmr off day (: Like finally ~ phew.

Cafe Del Mar $100 Affair ;S

2008-05-02T11:14:00.000+08:00

Everybody knows I love pink. When it comes to choosing of accessories, clothes; the element of pink will always be there. Therefore, not to say, FOOD.

Strawberry flavoured Chocolates

ChupaChups Strawberry& Cream Lollipops

Strawberry Cake with Strawberry toppings

&Everyone knows how much I hate Milk. Especially Vanilla Milk. Thank God, there was Strawberry Milk! It's th must have everyday for me! (I know it's flattening; but bfore this i seriously don't know when is th last time i drank milk! Lol!)

Hahahaas, I'm not gonna do this. Lol.

Went to Senotosa with Vicki& Shu Ying yesterday. Brought them to the luge! They wasn't really interested in Luge. But they wanted th 2 way SkyRider Ride! Lols, so we spend $10 up&down on the SkyRider. Yeps, it was fun. But on the way back, they said they wanted th luge. Hahahahas, but we left it till the next time. Headed to Cafe Del Mar.

Eh? The beach is so fking crowded but not Cafe Del Mar. So we walked in, & realised that we need a min. spending of $100 for a day bed. The three of us sian 1/2. Then we walked away. Then suddenly I'd the urge to pee. The nearest toilet is probably at th Luge .____. Vicki suggest we go back to Cafe Del Mar. $30+ per person for all th facilities in there. So we headed back.

Looked at the menu. We had no choice but to settle our lunch there. We ordered 2 baskets of french fries, 1 fish&chips, 2 baskets of chicken wings, 1 fruit platters, 3 virgins margarita, 3 coke, 2 coke light. Total bill is around $110. The staff there suggested us to do away with only 1 basket of fries cuz' fish&chips include fries too. Lol. We insist.

After th orders, we played in th water. When we came back, I realised my fruit platter "dried up". Lol, Kiwi nv tasted so hard bfore! So I ended up eating Pineapple& Watermelon. Lol. Eat& eat& eat. We can't seem to finish th neverending fries. Saw 196&gang, so we gave the rest to them& headed to Vivo to shop around.

I spend 1/2 hour trying 10 dresses? Lols, that's long! Hahahaas, I'd been wanting to invest in a really nice dress. But I tried BYSI, MNG ytd. Can't seem to get one I like or suitable for me ;'(

;'(

2008-04-29T19:09:00.000+08:00

Shallin Sweetie surpised me with a "I Love Zombie" when i went online.
So I did a "drawing" of "I Love Shallin" back (: So cool lah~!

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拍一张分别的纪念努力远走高飞失眠的海面
地平线彩虹消失在一瞬间

其实从头到尾谁又得到了水仙
其实从头到尾走了错误的航线
让海水都没去你我的脸闭上眼
回到原点一个语言两个世界

Was so tired. I need more time to sleep ;(
Some expired Photos:

Can't get enough of Ong Teng (:

2008-04-26T11:33:00.001+08:00

This friend of mine, Ong Teng(a student from La Salle) did this head structure on th La Salle Parade Day using only artcard & rice paper. & It was selected for Singapore Art Festival!

http://by-a-notch.livejournal.com/85697.html

Check out the link above. Pictures of head structures in her blog entries. Actually, this is quite a retarded post cuz' th parade was so long ago. Lols. Nevertheless, this is not her ty-go productions. You should probably read her whole blog & see how talented she is (:

money money ;(

2008-04-22T20:45:00.000+08:00

Hais, when will I get my Digital SLR? Cost around $1k +. After my uncle's rebate of $200, it's $800+. Now my pay is $880 after CPF. Need to pay my phone bills, transport.. Wait a minute! I'm at sucha convenient outlet now. Hmm.. Can save around $100?

Hais, just nice for a new spects only ;( Hais, just hope I cant manage to squeeze a small amt every month and get myself a SLR probably next year? WAIT......~~!! But my laptop? My handphone? ;(

My god, can someone please send me money? Lols.

Lot One IP Zone (:

2008-04-21T02:52:00.000+08:00

Photography Madness (:

Hey people, yesterday was my last day at TM. Gonna miss all the fun people there ;( People like Cowie, Siew Mei, Jelly, Jennifer, Chrix, Mabel, Junxian & Raymond~!

Oh pleaseeee, tkae me there~

2008-04-18T10:50:00.000+08:00

New song uploaded &it has been ringing into my ears everyday back home from Tampines Mall. Wonderful 67 rides that took 2 hours to and 1&1/2hrs back. Sleep all the way. I bet a lot of passengers laughing at me. Hahahaas.

Finally yesterday get to see Kor. Went out with Kelvin, Kor, XiaoBai, Faz & other guy. We were happily playing the basketball thingy at arcade & didn't realised someone stole xiaobai's bag. Fuck that loser. He was fucking fast la. The game was short, took around 5 minutes? &that was all the time he needed to take her bag away. When she realised her bag stolen, we called her phone immediately & her phone was switched off already. Poor girl.

We headed back to Vivo to get her spare keys and saw Roy. Poor Roy alone surviving th dead atomsphere at S&K. I think she's going crazy soon. Chat awhile, head back to IP Zone. Accompany her back to her house. Interesting, she stays at Little India area (: I didn't know there were HDBs over there!

After police report, we head to some Prata shop to eat. Faz &I shared Murtabak. Eww, the Chicken Murabak like no chicken. Should rename as ONION Murtabak. Hahahas.

Overdue photos:

My Fake double eyelids (:

Zombie & Vicki

Me & Vicki again (:

Tada! My Jun Hao Er Zi. Lol ;D

Whose turn to put aeroplane?

2008-04-14T02:38:00.000+08:00

hello Mr Egg-ie (:

2008-04-13T10:01:00.000+08:00

Can someone teach me how to cook a perfect Sunny-side-up Egg? Perfect meaning,

1. NO BURNT BOTTOM
2. 1/2 COOKED YOLK

Someone please please teach me! I love eggs so much I wished I could eat them with every meal! BUT damnit, why egg have high cholesterol ;( Cooked one just now, sandwiched it between 2 slices of bread. My god, heaven-ly~! I think Egg is probably the most convenient food on Earth! It goes well with anything; rice, noodles, porridge, bread......! &you know what? I hate the yolk to be broken! Normally I'll throw away the egg if the yolk broke. Lol ;X

&& I've gotten WONDERFUL NEWS for myself! I'm finally

TRANSFERRED TO IPZONE!

I know it sounds so fking retarded but I'm really happy about it although my first outlet will be at Tampines Mall. Lol! o.O It's a temporary location. They will be having major transfer 2-3weeks later. Hope TM's Chris help me put in good words then I can go West side or Central side de IP ZONE outlets. Transfer takes effect from Monday; & they are having conversion -.-''

Remembered when I watch Narnia years back, I recalled the small boy tricked to the witch's castle with Turkish Delights. It looked like coloured Muah Chee with Oneh Oneh's white powder around it.

I swear it's gonna be delicious. NTUC @ J8 sells Turkish Delights too! It wrote Authentic Turkish Delights; but who knows? Lol. I'm gonna get one today. Hahaaas..(before I leave for TM)

Gonna take photos with the j8 team. Don't kknow when I'll see them again ;(

The Devil Is The DJ.

2008-04-09T13:24:00.000+08:00

Went to Warehouse to relieve Jimmy for a day. Oh my God. Terrible, Horrible! Just look at this!

Expected. Accessories sold at $1. Tees sold at $2. Bottoms&Jacket at $3. Who wouldn't want? Hmm, irony here. All of them are damaged goods. Yet the sales for that day is $5000! Hahahaas!

Yeah, the first singing competition of my life. At S&K Mass Gathering @ PartyWorld International Building. 6 blackouts straight. They transferred us to PartyWorld @ Singtel that side. I sang "Xing Bu Liao Qing" with my pending flu. Total of 7 contestants. Thank you for cheering for me; Liling, Roy, Felicia, Lilian, Shallin etc. Thank you. & I got

SECOND IN THIS COMPETITION!

First was Rebecca from PS, third was Justina. Probably not too bad for my first singing competition (: Made new friends over there &finally know who is Jason from Vivio .____. It's not th one who added me in friendster. It's another friendster from S&K donkey years ago! Lol.

Poor Roy got hangover after 2cups of beer. Helped her home. But she kept vomitting for 3 days. See doctor already then realised it's "fan wei" (Gastric upset). Poor thing, hope she's better now ;(

This is what I wore to the event. My first time wearing orange & thank you Vicki for giving me discount for these MNG apparels ;D

More pictures from Shallin but she has yet to send me. Look at th bottom pictures. There's always something wrong with me in photos ;'(

For the 1st pic, I looked so not photogenic.
For the 2nd pic, I looked retarded.
For the 3rd pic, I looked like I'm pregnant!
WTF!

Thought my dad's thing would be over. Now is my mum's turn. She had got a tumor as big as fishball in her womb. Whether it's cancerous a or not, there's a high possibility's that she needs operation. &it's gonna be a big one cuz' my mum had 4 births & 1 abortion before I was born as her womb was weak to give birth that time. Major Operation meaning survival rate is either 50-50 or even lesser.

Just now on the way to Mt Alvernia Hospital she keep talking me stuffs like she's gonna leave now. Major Operation will cause a few thousand bucks furthermore a private one ;'( Guess Dad's having a big headache now cuz' he jus asked me when is my sch startin if enrolment is successful. Fuck la, why must all shit come at the same time.

& recently, a "not-so-close" friend of mine told me about issues concerning adultery. I was really sad hearing it. I felt sourness at my nose; my tears was about to drop out and someone shouted, "Zombie~! Payment!" -.-|| Faints. I don't get it. Why must all guys be bastards &why are some girls so willing to be the sluts? Fuck off.

i must think of more ways to earn money &be independent. I should really stop being a crybaby. Why? I cry when I felt attacks in friends/people comments about me. I cry when I have fever. I cry when I'm emo. I cry over nothing ;'(

It's time for me to brace up now. And Liling too (:

o.O?

2008-04-07T02:33:00.000+08:00

it's tmrrr~

2008-04-06T08:59:00.000+08:00

Let me tell u a secret. Hahaas, it aint really one but.. I'm representing J8 for S&K Singing competition tomorrow! I'm happy cuz' it's my first singing competition. But on the other hand, my flu is still here &i know i can't do my best with all th phlegm struck in my nose. Argh.

Woke up late. Didn't comb my hair &went for work. I swear, I looked horrible! After work, head to #1 hair Salon & got my hair shampooed &blown dry. Was hoping my customer would be th one to shampoo my hair cuz' i told her i would patronise one day ;( Another guy served me instead.. After th treat, I shopped alil at Vivo's MANGO while waiting for Vicki to finish work. Bought a top and skirt. Yeah, long time since i last wore skirt. The feelin' was great! It's a white skirt; not too long &not too short (:

After shopping &Vicki releasing from work, it's dinner time! We went to Kim Gary's (: Th baked rice, omgomg! So nice! With a thick layer of cheese! Woot~

im stil having coldddddd~

2008-04-05T01:17:00.000+08:00

Went for Klunch with Vicki& Ying (: Was great fun! Damn SiMing didnt come. Damn th stupid background. Green again. Argh! Had to cover my clothes with windbreaker. Will update soon~!

Bounceeeeeeeeee

2008-04-01T13:16:00.000+08:00

A lot of people had been askin' me what exactly happened to my dad. Okay, this is the right page to know what exactly happened.

He was working when the incident happened. He opened the door of a cabinet or something. Then the metals and cardboards inside fell on him; he tried to support but those stuff were too heavy. He let go, but wasn't fast enough to stay away from the crash. The things fell and th metal smashed his left hand's third and fourth finger tips. It was totally flat. I repeat. TOTALLY FLAT.

The doctor can actually rejoin th detached finger tips but it's totally flat. So my dad had no choice but to amputate his 2 finger tips. What the hell right. Years back, my uncle of the paternal side had a similar accident. His was only one finger. My sister and I was so scared to see his fingers. But now, this kinda thing happened to my biological dad. What the hell.

Anyway, I love Nissin Laksa. Do you? (:

sick. argh! shit is a pain in my ass. Lol ;P

2008-03-31T23:48:00.000+08:00

What the fuck. What a lousy day. I sneezed like a hundred times for fuck reason. My eyes were so itchy, I can't stop rubbing it! I look so zombified at work today, Thank God I wasn't in makeup or not I will look like a over exaggerated freak.

&&I was so unwell, I cabbed home after work. Then I realised I was home before my parents. Okay, im clueless what's going on. Then someone knocked on th door. It's my dad and bro. My dad just got 2 finger tips amputated because of an accident at work. Ywah, like what th fuck?

This is unfair. Without that two finger tips, I doubt my dad's work gonna be something easy in th future. My youngest sis is only 10; my dad had to work at least a 10 years more. Fk, why are things always so unfair to me... and even pple around me.

Many times I wanted to scream out cuz' I just can't take all these shits going on. It pisses to have sucha fucked up life. I hate everything... less than myself..

Maple love story? (:

2008-03-28T12:51:00.000+08:00

A very cute MTV intro by Sadness Kor (:

Chippy's Beer Battered Fish rock my sockssss!

2008-03-27T19:57:00.000+08:00

OMG, I walked past GUESS @ Plaza Sing and guess what I saw? A hot pink handbag! Small one selling at 169, big one selling at 199 only! My god! Hope this month's pay enough to buy it cuz' I seriously want it! I must start selling my creations to earn money already then i'll have enough to buy that bag (:

Had a great day with TerryBoy & Alvin at Bugis jalan jalan. Then head Lucky Plaza find Sadness Kor, Kenneth & Shallin sweetie (: Went to some "Rabbit" Resturant and the mushroom is fking big and juicy man! Then head back to shop find Shallin with her BIG memismerising eyes cuz' she got those enlarge pupils' contact lens ;D

After that we head to Far East, Pacific Plaza, Plaza Sing jalan jalan. Then we head Dhoby Ghaut MRT to play arcade. Para para and video games was awesome! Then now at LAN shop blog o.O

Tried dressing Boho-ish today but I guess I failed. Cuz' my sleeve dropped when I was playing Para Para. How embarrassing xD

ahh~ u touched my ta la la~

2008-03-26T22:41:00.000+08:00

Great news! I'm preparing for my online shop already! Hahaaas. Today was half morning shift. Now stoning at home. Anyway show u my audit character, so cute xD

I'm as sleepy as she is luh! Hahahhaas. Off to stone. toodles!

shyt meeeeeeeeee

2008-03-26T01:40:00.000+08:00

This is so retarded. Yesterday stocktake, today conversion to clearance. What's wrong with the management man? No money left already. All used to cab home; claims coming but I've no idea when exactly ;( Shit, had to borrow from mum. Hais, scared her don't want. I left with less than 10 dollars for 2days and it's my off day.

I just can't believe stoning at home is how im gonna spend my off day. My god, someone jio me out and pay for my expenses can? Lol, retarded question.

Sians. I want to change job. Hopefully I can find one good one. This company is so yucky and it's pissing me off. Yea, i know, All things are pissing me off now.

It might be a harsh decision. But the way they treat me and V* now are really like..... Argh. Definitely more hurting and more harsh. At ifrst when we left out V*, I was like hack care hack care cuz' we don't feel hurt when we are happily enjoying. Now that I'm left out, I finally felt hw vonne felt. Really, it hurts ok. You never feel it before, u don't say u never neglect. Really. Now I feel guilty. And it's saddening. You know what? I feel that I owe Vonne so much, I really don't know what I can do to her to compensate all her losses. I just hope Vonne doesn't hate me for all things that happned before. I still love you. The longest friendship of 12 years in ZJ.. (:

tempo has reached critical level. tempo has reached critical level.

2008-03-25T10:03:00.000+08:00

Another impressive song from Step Up 2, "Bounce" by Timbaland feat. Dr. Dre, Missy Elliot& Justin Timberlake. But I still choose "Low" as my blog song cuz' it's still th best song from Step Up 2!

I missed so much things in Causeway Point. Really. Sunday night, I was told to go IMM to relief. I took the MRT and passed Woodlands MRT. My god, there's PASAR MALAM! There's my favourite all inside! Ramily Burger, Takoyaki and most importantly, all our favourite.....SHARKFINS SOUP! I missed the days we open stock till late night, rushed down to buy Sharksfins soup and tried our best to finish it before the last train or last bus. Argh. Misses and misses. All we can do now is just hope th next outing gathering, all will be able to meet up. Not going Zoo this time. Probably a dinner and a late night movie. It's gonna be fun.

Zhou Jia's story started when Me, Vonne, Monster and Layss known each other in primary 1-3 then met back when we are 14 then when we got really close at 16. "Zhou"is the Chinese surname of Monster and Layss so I decided to call it Zhou Jia. Our first outing was on 11 March'06; the day we met up for k-box session during the March Holidays.

From:

Slowly we bonded:

Years of Seventeen:
Then to the 3 of us, neglecting the 4th one

Now?
Oh shut up.
Outsiders see it best.

Over this period of time, I did a lot of thinking. Had made a very big decision. I was clueless what's gonna happened after I announced my decision. People will hate me? Be happy I made this decision? Fcuk, no point guessing, I'm still gonna say it out.

I'm disbanding ZHOU JIA.

I'm serious. A group that doesn't bond together anymore. We can't show what friendship means to us. Everyone changed in this group. All had found their own clique of friends. So.. what for? ZHOU JIA is jus a shell. Inside? There's nothing. No more ZHOU JIA.

All I hope now is to hold on to all my "pending" friendships now. Know more people, be myself and find a new clique of friends in school next year; not forgetting Sadness Kor, Haprer, Ray, Jeff, Terry my workfriends like Anqi, Roy, Shallin, Cowie and Cindy.. I should really stop thinking that THEY will miss me cuz' THEY had changed & I'll never know if they are just plastic to me a not. I mean I'd seen that side of them and I would leave in order not to get myself hurt again. Cuz' this is not the friendship I want. Sighs.

caught by the taste of ur kiss

2008-03-24T02:23:00.000+08:00

Another boring day at work. Ended my 2nd half of my full shift at IMM doing relief. Surprised to see Sadness Kor at IP ZONE helping out for tomorrow stock take's preparation. After work at S&K, went over to IP to bid goodbye to Kelvin & *(ahems). Hahaaas, who knows they convince me to stay over to fold clothes .___. I was meeting a friend later on, so I told them I'd to go in 30minutes. But the real reason was to see *(ahems). Fcuk! Im sucha bitch. But she's really.... omg, shan't elaborate further. Hahaaas. *(Ahems) thanked me for staying to help! okay, I think I should stop being "hua-chi" and turn in soon. My eyes are closing.. & u know, cuz' my eyes are smaller; they close FASTER.. Lol. Toodles.

Disband? Probably th best solution.

im sucha bitchhhhhhh...!

2008-03-22T11:06:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was afternoon shift. Today is afternoon shift. Tomorrow is going to be FULL SHIFT! Argh. Work's seriously getting boring bcuz' of the sales of regular items now. Hais, when I was still in Causeway point.. All the wonderful working moments with Sadness Kor, Anqi Jie, Roy, Rachel, Cowie, Shallin, WenYong.. OMG! I can't stop thinking about them. Although there were conflicts in skipzone(combination of IPZONE and S&K) then, now that all are in different locations, we started to miss each other. It seems no matter where we are posted to, nothing can replace the memories we had in Causeway Point. Sales was good and most importantly, we felt like a big family.

I'm so looking forward to the next ex-outing gathering! Heard we are going to the Zoo? How cool! With all th fun people ;D Gonna borrow camera from someone already. Hahaaas. Shyt, damnit. ytd afternoon, today afternoon, tmr full, monday is stock take! Meanin' everyone is going to kena almost full shift. Fcuk, I'm damn tired la! &my off day is Thursday. Damnit. My pay will only come at 11pm this Thursday. Took the wrong day off man! Hope this few days will give me chance to work all th shyt outta me! Then I can burn more calories ;x

But what I worry is if something will happen to Grandpa these days I'm workin such hiong shifts. I do want to go temple pray and hope all things gonna be good for me these day. Had been rather unlucky for th past few months. And I sinned. I broke someone's heart after only being tgt for 5 days. I guess I really cant accept a str8 relationship anymore although im still lovin weirdo who is a str8 guy. Guess I'm the real weirdo ba. Argh. Fucked up mode!

Updated profile and wishlist. I wanna go all native amercia, african and Boho(Bohemium) style. Awaits people! (:

emo nemo like ... again?

2008-03-21T10:17:00.000+08:00

I'm feelin' emo nemo suddenly, I feel like doing something to my life. I'd the urge to enrol into ITE or polytechnic for a decent certificate. Did some research at night & I realised RP had some Mass-Comm related course. It's the Diploma in Communication and Information Design. It's more of Media and Technology kind of thing.

Asked around; asked Yutakis definitely. He told me air-conditioning in RP is wonderful! Woo~ I hate humidity and RP's definitely a good environment for me to study! I need air-conditioning a lot man. Singapore's so humid, I can't stand it!

But it's saddening that the school doesn't have a 2nd intake for 2008 unlike other polytechnics like TP. Meaning if I enrol next year into RP, my RP friends of my age would be in year 3 already .____.

Being emo, I also thought of starting business online. I'm not confident of it thou. Had been trying to open sprees and doing online business but failed. Not sure if it's because it's a shared online shop; uneven share of jobload, so nothing succeeded. Wanted to do something more special than normal online shops. I'll start researching and hopefully by my birthday, the shop will be up and business prospers.

Also, I had thought of blogging in this kinda "traditional" essay method without that two pathetic finger spacing in front. Makes my blogger more matured? Lol, I swear I wanna be a good blogger, get more blogders, increase my hits and make it an advertising tool for me and my future online shop

**Bits of post missing. damnit.

When good boy meets bad girl

2008-03-18T18:06:00.000+08:00

[Chorus (T-Pain)]:
Shawty had them Apple Bottom Jeans [Jeans]
Boots with the fur [With the fur]
The whole club was lookin at her
She hit the flo [She hit the flo]
Next thing you know
Shawty got low low low low low low low low
Them baggy sweat pants
And the Reeboks with the straps [With the straps]
She turned around and gave that big booty a smack [Ayy]
She hit the flo [She hit the flo]
Next thing you know
Shawty got low low low low low low low low
[Verse 1 (Flo Rida)]:
I ain't never seen nuthin that'll make me go,
this crazy all night spendin my dough
Had a million dollar vibe and a bottle to go
Dem birthday cakes, they stole the show
So sexual, she was flexible
Professional, drinkin X and oh
Hold up wait a minute, do i see what I think I
Whoa
Did I think I seen shorty get low
Ain't the same when it's up that close
Make it rain, I'm makin it snow
Work the pole, I got the bank roll
Imma say that I prefer them no clothes
I'm into that, I love women exposed
She threw it back at me, I gave her more
Cash ain't a problem, I know where it goes
She had them
[Chorus (T-Pain)]:
Apple Bottom Jeans [Jeans]
Boots with the fur [With the fur]
The whole club was lookin at her
She hit the flo [She hit the flo]
Next thing you know
Shawty got low low low low low low low low
Them baggy sweat pants
And the Reeboks with the straps [With the straps]
She turned around and gave that big booty a smack [Ayy]
She hit the flo [She hit the flo]
Next thing you know
Shawty got low low low low low low low low
[Verse 2 (Flo Rida)]:
Hey
Shawty what I gotta do to get you home
My jeans full of gwap
And they ready for Shones
Cadillacs Maybachs for the sexy grown
Patrone on the rocks that'll make you moan
One stack (come on)
Two stacks (come on)
Three stacks (come on, now that's three grand)
What you think I'm playin baby girl
I'm the man, I'll bend the rubber bands
That's what I told her, her legs on my shoulder
I knew it was over, that Henny and Cola
Got me like a Soldier
She ready for Rover, I couldn't control her
So lucky oo me, I was just like a clover
Shorty was hot like a toaster
Sorry but I had to fold her,
Like a pornography poster
She showed her
[Chorus (T-Pain)]:
Apple Bottom Jeans [Jeans]
Boots with the fur [With the fur]
The whole club was lookin at her
She hit the flo [She hit the flo]
Next thing you know
Shawty got low low low low low low low low
Them baggy sweat pants
And the Reeboks with the straps [With the straps]
She turned around and gave that big booty a smack [Ayy]
She hit the flo [She hit the flo]
Next thing you know
Shawty got low low low low low low low low
[Verse 3 (Flo Rida)]:
Whoa
Shawty
Yea she was worth the money
Lil mama took my cash,
and I ain't want it back,
The way she bit that rag,
got her them paper stacks,
Tattoo above her crack,
I had to handle that,
I was on it, sexy woman, let me shownin
They be want it two in the mornin
I'm zonin in them rosay bottles foamin
She wouldn't stop, made it drop
Shorty did that pop and lock,
Had to break her off that gwap
Gah it was fly just like my glock
[Chorus (T-Pain)]:
Apple Bottom Jeans [Jeans]
Boots with the fur [With the fur]
The whole club was lookin at her
She hit the flo [She hit the flo]
Next thing you know
Shawty got low low low low low low low low
Them baggy sweat pants
And the Reeboks with the straps [With the straps]
She turned around and gave that big booty a smack [Ayy]
She hit the flo [She hit the flo]
Next thing you know
Shawty got low low low low low low low low

Pledge to go fur-free at PETA.org
Received this email frm Felicia.
If you can't watch video,
copy and paste this URL,
http://www.furisdead.com/feat/ChineseFurFarms/
it's gross and disgusting like fk!

i don't want to lose grandpa ;'((

2008-03-12T22:10:00.000+08:00

Grandpa's having depression and it's killing me.
It hurts to hear sis say he punched his own chest.
I have no idea what caused him to be like that.
Old people emo too. & it's sad that it's my beloved grandpa.

Mum got th house door keys changed aft grandpa's repeated
attempts to get out of th house in th middle of the night.
If one day, he's jus gonna step out of th door, he will probably
forget th road back, go missing or get into trouble with strangers.
I'm sorry we had to "lock" you in but it's because we
don't want anymore troubles. We even locked our windows up.

I believe all these are for this own good. I don't want to also.
It's a hard time accepting such suggestions from my family,
cos I love grandpa so so so much(althou he doesn't love me like bfore).

Grandpa, I don't want you to go...

(There's gotta be) More To Life

2008-03-09T21:57:00.000+08:00

I've got it all, but I feel so deprived,
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside,
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing.
And why can't I let it go?

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me.
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life.
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more.
(Than wanting more)

I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half way out the door.
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing.

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me,
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life.
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more

I'm wanting more! (Ohhh! Yeah!)

I'm always waiting on something other than this
Why'm I feelin' like there's something I missed?

There's gotta be more to life
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me.
Cause the more that I'm... (More that I'm)
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure
there's gotta be more to life

Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life.
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more to life.

More to, more to, more to life.
(There's gotta be more to life) More to, more to, more to life.
There's gotta be more
More to life

-------------------------------------------------------

A song introduced by Sadness Kor& gang to me.
She's so pretty in 1:10, please watch MTV~!

She's sucha sweetie pie, love you~!
Watch 10 000BC with her, my god!
A-W-E-S-O-M-E T-O-T-A-L-LY!

Steven Strait(main actor) has a certain resemblance to Orlando Bloom!
This makes him f*kin attractive! He's only 21, married(sad for th girl fans).
Th main actress is f*king pretty also! Camilia something. She's gorgeous!

******************************************************

My conscience spoke to me last night
and she whispered to my ears,
"Silly, you'd been used."

Fuck. Why always me? Yes all things happened for a reason.
It's sad to know now why I've been treated "good" of late.
I'm glad, I stil have a clique that will stand by me.
Th world is changing, not me.. People think I changed.
But it's just my way of retaliating to th changed pple.
Should I start changing also?
Everyone has an evil side and I'll show mine
soon i guess cause things are jus pissing me off.
Thought of this song suddenly,

yes, I must live better than others.
& i must learn th steps! so pretty!
Jiayou jiayou zombie~!

(:

last night.. break it down~

2008-02-26T07:01:00.000+08:00

My god, I took over 20 photos over th weekend..
But only two can make it. OMG! I'm really not photogenic!
Arghhhhh!!!!

Saturday and Sunday were off for me to clear O.Ts.
Off to LP to find Sadness Kor & Andy for awhile,
then I headed to LAN for Audition, met vonne for dinner..
Long time since I last meet her ;'(

After that I headed to someone*'s house.
We planned to chat till we fall asleep.
But after we finish bathing, both of us were snoring away~
Lol, but she's really sweet. She covered a blanket for me ((:

Woke up and headed home. Bathed and changed,
meet Vonne aft her guzheng class at CCKCC.
Headed town for lunch. Then she went for her band pract.
Went to LP again to find Kor, Anqi & Shallin..
End up she's not working!! Dots!

Aft accoompanying th rest for breaks, I headed LAN again.
Saw Brian and Kenneth, Layss came aft awhile.
then I went TANTRIC with them cos it's Mon's
first day and work, guess who i saw?
RICHARD LAOGONG!!
Hahaaas, I sound like a retard!

Cabbed home arnd 1plus?
lol, nxt morning, WORK.
Sians. Hahhahaaas.

I'm so looking forward to that day ^^

do you ever....

2008-02-23T10:35:00.000+08:00

If one day when you're ...

watching television...

OR

shopping for something..

OR

you happened to be drinking..

OR

saw someone with pink hair..

WOULD YOU BE REMINDED
OF ME?

of probably how I ..

got excited over how adorable CJ7 is?

OR

am proud of my "CRYSTAL BALL"?

OR

got high during clubbing moments?

Feeling emo nemo now && i don't like this kinda feeling at all. Shyt myself. Yes, I don't want to be someone great in anybody's life. I don't want to be credited for things I've done. I don't want you to thank for anything. I wanted just th thought of me randomly when you continued with ur everyday life. Feeling breathless all th time doesn't make me feel good at all. Yes, simple.. Just remember me..

2008-02-21T20:20:00.000+08:00

Cassis
Zuttokurikaeshiteta zuttokanashimasete bakaridatta
Kittoanatasaemo kizutsukete boku wa ugokenumama
Anatani furerukotoga naze konnani kurushiinodesuka?

Kitto onaji koto wo kurikaeshite anata wo ushinatteshimaunoga kowakattakara

Yorisoukotode nuguoutoshita wasurekirenakattahi wo
Anata wa nanimo kikazuni konote wo nigittekuretane

Ashita anatano kimochi ga hanaretemo
Kitto kawarazuni aishiteiru
Ashita anatani boku ga mienakutemo
Kitto kawarazu aishiteiru
I will walk together, the future not promised
It keeps walking together, to future in which you are...

Tsuraikotosae wasurerukurai
Anata wo omotteiru
Aenaiyoru wo kazoerutabini
Kogarerumune
Kakechigai no sabishisatsunoru douka hitorikiridenakanaide
Donnani hanareteitemo shinjiaeru futarideiyou

Douka konomama warateitai
Anata wo kizutsukesasenaide
Toki ga tatsutabi usureteitta
Annaomoi kurikaeshitakunai
Ashita anatano kimochiga hanaretemo
Kitto kawarazu aishiteiru
Ahita anatani bokuga mienakutemo
Kitto kawarazu aishiteiru
Douka bokudake wo mitsumeteite
Douka konotega tokenuyou

I will walk together, the future not promised
It keeps walking together, to future in which you are...

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Yesterday was a day out at Sentosa.
Was a super sudden decision.
Made that decision in th morning itself.
Cycled. Was fking tired. Very tired.

Went Soup Spoon for dinner. Soup & Mushrooms!!
Headed Cine, saw pretty ShanLing &&& DARYL CAI YONG HUI!
He shouted my name .____. not zombie. my real name of course..
I was so malu! Sucha ugly name la! Bidded Good bye &&&
head to watch Ah Long Pte Ltd.
Headed home after th move...

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Today was a new start at other outlet.
Yes, Causeway Point's S&K is gone..
But im not an official staff today yet.
I went there jus to relief for an MC staff.
But from next week on, im working there..

Terry came to find me. So glad to see him (:
I miss a lot of pple. Especially VONNEE.. ;'(((

a way back into love? did i just failed? no, it's not me.

2008-02-15T12:30:00.001+08:00

yea~ new hair colour!! Haven't fade yet!
Oh please, don't fade away!! ;'(

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Watch CJ7. Oh my god, it's f-cute!
Look at kor's locker!
oh someone, buy it for me please...
I don't know when th toy will be out,
but please, someone buy for me please!!

expired chinese new year photos

2008-02-15T12:13:00.000+08:00

2008-02-07T02:23:00.000+08:00

piece of that memory(removed.)

2008-02-05T10:56:00.000+08:00

Met up with my dearest daughter, Yvonne!
Town-ing for clothes, makeup & fun ((:
Ended up in Cine for some CHEEEEESE fondueeeee!

Okkay, i look so retarded with my mouth open!

D* classes starting in March, getting really excited!
New year's coming & i hav only got tops, not bottoms!
Stil gonna pull something out from my closet to wear ;(

& yes, i hav gotten cheery red highlights& purple black base!
I fking love it! But I didn't manage to snap photo of myself with
those pretty highlights of cheerrrrrrryy reeddddddd! :(
I will. Soon (: It's so fking nice can~

& yes...

Things
are
getting
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.
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oh stop it.

with my lalala~ life (:

2008-01-24T12:37:00.000+08:00

I must learn that Cantonese song fast!
So nxt time ktv can duet with Sadness Kor.

Headed to ICA Building with Sadness& Kelvin.
They going M'sia this Sat. Actuali i gg also.
But my passport with my mum. Damnit.

Hope March can go Bangkok with them.
Buy a lot of stuff. Buy lots of clothes.
Headed down to AMK find Nicole eat dessert.
Then head to LAN shop play Audit& DOTA.
Enchantress has been killed. Lols, sad ah.

Yes, new goals in life that I must work towards (:

fcuk off.

2008-01-20T04:13:00.000+08:00

at first i had a lot to lose.
u took everything&
im left with nothing.

now that i don't have anything to lose alr,
i really don't know what exactly u stil want from me
& how much u wanna hurt me further.
listen, u alr took E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G!
kill me! if it makes you happy.

i love you like crazy~

2008-01-19T10:09:00.000+08:00

await my new hair colour!

bored on a saturday night?

2008-01-19T09:23:00.000+08:00

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i wished i could go. i wished i was 18.
party all night& no one disturbs me.
any place like this other than so called H-O-M-E..
I M_SS YOU A LOT ;'(

i miss them. betrayed.

2008-01-17T12:25:00.000+08:00

fought with my mum and guess what?
I'M PROBABLY NEVER
GONNA STUDY AGAIN!
good or bad news? Hahaaas.
I literally fought & there're stil bruises.
2 time this week alr. hw long can i hold?
after my 18th birthday, im probably moving out.
renting house tgt with some other friends ba.

yes, family don't always spell L-O-V-E all th time..

Kenneth came down to look for kor ytd.
& it's like.. a thousand yrs i didn't see him!
(not to mention them; it's a million, probably)

Working there for a month already.
Glad disputes at workplace are all cleared.
Gonna finish th last month at this outlet.
Roy's training me to be sales driven.
Okay, im probably working long term now
so i really need to buck up!
Managed to score 2nd in S&K ranking
when sales was only $200 at 3pm.
Managed to close shop with $2600.
It was really difficult to convince customers!
Somemore, there's only me&Roy.
& im one of th cashiers.
(zombie, jia you jia you!)

im probably nothing..
as compared to ........
i won't wanna fight them like presents.
take them if you want to.
I dont define friends like you.

im feelin blue, lets work things out. cuz i don't know what to do ;( im stil lovin you..

2008-01-15T11:22:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was AnQi's 1st day transfer to our outlet. LOL.
Then Roy and I were late for 5 to 10 minutes. Kinda weird la.
I got 17 morning calls, then my mum told me to rest somemore.
10 supposed to reach shop. 9.30am Roy sms us tellin us she's be late.
Then I woke up. Fuck. I took 10 minutes& i reached th LRT station.
No makeup, yet to bathe, no breakfast. I think my eyes were 1/2 close ;/

Thought it would be a bad day cuz Sadness Kor&Roy had misunderstandin.
End up, it was a great day with th four of us opening shop together!
Th 4 of us make th best team ever! hurray!

At first I thought AnQi was very fierce cos i never talk to her bfore.
End up, she's so adorable la! Really, 4 of us, th best working clique!

Blog next time. Busy now..

can someone please tell me they know how much im missing them?
i look at th photo "Happy Family" & i dropped tears again.
Ok, define. It's no longer happy family.
Cos u guys are happy & im sad..

To th world, u are just somebody. But to someone, you might just be her world.

2008-01-12T03:40:00.000+08:00

oh yes, this is it, I want this!
Th first branded im gonna get!
I know BONIA started Monogram first;
im sorry, i still chose Louis Vuitton!

Weirdo's playing MIA with me.
What th hell. okay, i hate this.
I'd a girlfriend earlier on for 10 minutes.
I suggested it & i initiated th brokeup
because of some stupid reasons.
im sorry but i can't that me you want.
okay, im sucha a failure ;(

Weirdo, sing mandy moore's "Want you back" to me,
And I will say yes, just for you!

i know.
dream on.

words don't kill, th character kills.

2008-01-07T11:17:00.000+08:00

My list of unlucky things recently:
1. (not to mention) Falling sick continuously for 4months.
2. Lost my MP3 with all my beloved songs in it.
3. Lost my makeup pouch(M.A.C, Anna Sui all gone)
4. Bear 1/3 amt lost in CashierBox(i done only 2 to 3hrs cashiering)
5. $7 to survive for 2 weeks. (Any kind souls? ;'( )

I didn't do topping up properly& was scolded by Roy.
Not really scolding but I understand th frustation.
& I broke down on th spot.
I know th scolding was for my own good.
If it's other in charge, warning letter will be sent out.
But this scolding made me realise my responsibilities.
& after 23 days in S&K, I finally did topping up for S&K.
Earlier on, I only did for IP Zone. But now i feel home.
Yes, it's a kind of sense of belonging to where you should be in.
I wonder when it will occur to me in my family.
Broke down because of so many fucking cheebong things going on.
Sorry for th use of vuglarities. but stil i wanna say..

NABEI

But th only good thing that happened is, I lost weight!
At least 5kg, after all th fast food& skipping of meals.

I dreamt of weirdo last night
& it's stil something bad.
I never had a wonderful day;
not even a good night..

New year Resolutions are supposed to be blogged out.
But forget it, nothing's gonna be good anyway.

NABEI
NABEI
NABEI
NABEI
NABEI
NABEI
NABEI
NABEI
NABEI!!

when do i really matter to anyone ?

2008-01-06T10:46:00.000+08:00

Expired pictures on the day i rebonded my hair.
towning with 2 loves, Si Ming and Irene (:
Si Ming doesn't want to take photo with me
because she's busy choosing boxer for her boy =x

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Went to Kaye's 18th birthday party. Quite cool la.
Cos it's done in traditional way tgt with some modern elements.
And look! Si Ming finally took photo with me!
& i helped out with her makeup that day (:

Damnit. I'm sucha a lousy friend. Fuck.
& i lost my mp3 and whole makeup pouch
in 2 days back to back. Damn suay.
Nabei is th word to use &&i probably said it
a 100times yesterday to my workfriends.

Na Bei!

grosss. totally.

2008-01-01T13:15:00.000+08:00

Celebrated new year with Roy, Cindy, Bung, Elaine& Meifong
Ver gross movie. Very very gross one....

celebration of new years means one more year of suffering. fucked up.

2007-12-31T11:49:00.000+08:00

I believe my BP has been up for this past hour.
Super fucked up with this kinda cheepong family.
I was told to move out by tonight after work.
I don't wish to elaborate what exactly happen,
but i won't want a family that doesn't want my explanation.
I wasn't given a chance to clear this stupid misunderstanding.
Just because of a vague short sentence someone said,
u assume everything &didn't want to hear my explanation.
This kinda cheepong family, i rather don't want.
Yes, I don't know where to go tonight, with no money.
S&K pay will only come end of Jan. My account left 2 digits.

People think im well off, please la, look deeper.
My new year clothes all my mum buy, she nv gives me money to buy.
If I wanna buy town stuff, sorry, she'll say "Use ur own money loh!"
My brother during CNY, will have money to buy nice clothes la.
What about me? They want me do this do that, like maid,
then treat me worse than my other siblings. What shyt lai de.

Cancer are supposed to be family oriented but i hate families alot.
Okay, seriously, I can't tie a husband down la, he'll sure get affair.
I don't like to be fked so I'll just remain as a bisexual? Lols.
PLs are seriously not in anymore. Now so many butch and Passive.
We are th minorities ;'( I'm so gonna get married in S.F. Lols.
If L Marriage good, but I don't know who to raise a child also.
I'm mood swing alot, ltr my child can't tahan den slash wrist how?

My god, I can't be a good gf, wife, mother, daughter, staff, friend, sister.
I'm stil finding smth that can motivate me to move on. No avail.
Sad ah. My emo moments are back. Fucked up.
Cancer swings a lot. Now I go crazy, next moment i shut up.
So I hope tnight work, won't kena beasts if not I'll blow up
then breakdown and run away from it.. Fuck.

Spell Family,
H-A-T-R-E-D

dance and party all night (: loves.

2007-12-31T09:02:00.000+08:00

guess im counting down with workfriends.
where? in IP Zone and S&K. LOLS. Hahaas ;D
It's okay la, will be a fun time i pray. Hoho ;)

My sexy voice havent recover eh.. how?
having emo moments walking hm frm MRT.
Thanks Roy for accompanying me ;)

Finally my first job ended but i'll continue part time first.
Cause I havent done anything to my portfolio yet.
Meeting up with th peeps soon to do research tgt (:
Probably Feb then I do full time. But will close down ;(
Hais.

we'll share our secret world, shall we?

2007-12-29T07:26:00.000+08:00

Fucked up life. It's getting so political &
I have no idea what to do about it.
Guide me, don't make me choose betw two.

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Sadness Kor was so sweet that night.
We headed for supper aft work when he got pay.
& he treated me nasi lemak with a huge drumstick!
I mean it's th thought that counts la! So sweet ((:

Bcuz of th coughing, I'm with a sexy voice now o.O
I like this kinda voice la, but will go out-of-tune when singing.
I don't like my real voice. It's so fking not boyish, not girlish.
Stuck with a vocal of lower G major, so can't sing a lot of songs.
Had to lower key or train to sing th song. What th fuck.
Over 17yrs, i had never taken gd care of my throat.
My throat's weak bcuz of throat infection before.
Had an relapse during last yr for 6 months, fked up.
& I can lose my voice if I sing k with friends for 6 hours
I loved spicy stuff alot. And lozenges doesn't work for me.
I lose my voice every now and then.
Hope it doesn't affect my worklife too much.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHH~

yes you can hold my hand if u want to, cos i wanna hold urs too (:

2007-12-27T01:48:00.000+08:00

Sing this song for me please,
Fergie's Big Girls Don't Cry

La da da da

The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter for my own protection baby
To be with myself in center
Clarity, peace, serenity

[chorus:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl no
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry

The path that I'm walking, I must go alone
I must take the baby steps till I'm full grown, full grown.
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I forsee the dark ahead if I stay

[chorus:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds

But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself in center
Clarity, peace, serenity
Yeah

[chorus:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry

La da da da da da

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im seriously this BIG girl. LOLS. Better with remix (:
Spent 2008 xmas with new loves; my working friends.
Sadness Kor, Andy, Bung, Roy,Jia Ying, Meifong,
Wenyong, Terence, Lina and Jasmine aftwork @ MRT.
No lah ;p under th station. With Martel, drinks& tibits.
I didn't drink of course. I won't wanna see myself drunk.
Cabbed home arnd 3am with Andy, Lina and Roy (:
th usual icebreakers, truth or dare & secret number.

Was so fking sad. Cos Weirdo seriously forgotten abt it.
No mood. My mouth stinks of th medicines of no help to
gastric flu. its supposed t make me feel better but did it?
I cough like my lungs was bursting already! Stress!

After that stupid food poisoning 2or3 mths ago, I sick all th way.
My "uncomfortable" outline over this period:
food poisoning, vomit, fever, internal heatiness, rashes, allergy,
gastric flu, blocked nose, flu, cough, fever, headache, no appetite.
Cough Syrup makes me wanna sleep during work.
I almost fainted la! Until I start to drink lots of water.
Cos drinking water will weaken th drug effect.

Someone's putting me onto th L plate.
I feel like going onto it too. Oh, come on.
Just put me back.

ahhhh~~~~~

2007-12-24T09:40:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas!

not sure if weirdo rmbs..

oh come on' and take me away

2007-12-22T20:31:00.000+08:00

I'm down with Gastric Flu. Had to take leave.
Thank God Shallin morning extend to full shift. Thanks (:
And I cried when I was at home; in fact everytime I have fever.
I know it's childish, I hope no one see me cry when im sick ;p

I need Mandy Moore's
WANT YOU BACK,
can anyone send me please?

im learning to fall with no safety net to cushion th blow

2007-12-22T08:46:00.000+08:00

I'm super freaking bored. Tell me what to do.
Tmr's full shift but i seriously can't sleep at all.
Others are partying &im here stoning away.
Had been a bad month I guess..

1.I didn't receive my "My Sweetest Sin" tee from T&K.
T&K told me they sent out last Saturday but I didn't receive at all.
& they told me they are not responsible for lost mail. $23 flew away :'(

2.L_______ C______ had yet to give me my Nov'07 pay.
I submitted my timesheet 1 week bfore submition date& smsed boss
that I need th pay to process fast because I need it to get some stuff.
Wed, she told me she's busy with Enrichment camp which ends on Fri.
But she will submit to accounts immediately after camp. I trusted her.
End up, Mon(3th Dec), 2nd-in charge called me to enquire some stuff.
After that I asked her if my cheque's being processed&whether it's sent out.
(normally it's th 6th but since I requested earlier, it should be sent out alr.)
She told me that I would get it only when my boss returns from Australia.
Damn it, my boss didn't tell me she's going Australia on Mon(3days aft camp).
So I asked her when Boss's coming back. She says it's 14 December. What the hell.
So I told her angrily that if there's any pay delay, do inform teachers earlier.
She apologised and say she will get back to me when Boss returns.
I waited patiently till 14 Dec, 15 Dec, 16 Dec, 17 Dec, still no cheque, no SMS.
So I smsed both of them, asking them when I'll get my cheque, they say processing.
Till today, 22 Dec, still haven't come! It's been a month I'd sent out th timesheet!
So they smsed me just now and said actually cheque already being processed.
But because I'm terminating contract, so for this last cheque sent to me,
they had to collect back all teaching materials in exchange. And continued,
She said it was written in our contract that we must exchange for this last cheque.
Boss's trying to say I didn't return th materials so I can't get my cheque.
But didn't you just pass it to 2nd in-charge only just now?
Even if I return the materials earlier, I still can't get th cheque!
Cheque already being processed?
My 2nd in Charge says I can only get it when you return.
this last cheque sent to me?
Exclude Nov07, you guys still owe me $75 for Dec07!
Tell me, which is supposed to be last payment now?
When I told u in 1st sms, I alr said I have one more day taught!
How ironic she can be. Make me sound like I'm in wrong for not
returning the materials that's why I can't get my cheque. Nabei.

3.Pending Piano fees
My piano teacher claimed I owe her $500+ for all practice lessons.
Yup, those before piano exam. She was th one who told me this:
"Playing not good enough, I don't care. Everyday come my house practise"
1 day practise 2hrs at her house. 2 days, 4 hours = 1month piano fee(1$70).
I went to practise for around 2weeks? So, she claimed I owe her $500+.
Mum was so pissed off and refused to pay for me at all.
She thinks it's unfair for her to pay for this $500+ for me. Fine but
She told everyone how my teacher tried to cheat her money. LOL.
But now you want me to pay for it, why act pathetic as if u're paying?
So now, I'll have to transfer 50 every month to my piano teacher. Fk.

4.People hate me
Maybe it wasn't being said out. But I do believe they hate me to an extent.
Lol, I was th one who felt hurt because all of them changed & I hate th new them.
They looked like they cared but none really contact me& I felt forsaken actually.
Yes, I'm disappointed. They seemed to enjoy life better WITHOUT me.
I did tried to salvate also by smsing gd nite, sending comments. Yup, replied.
But other than that, everytime they contact is to ask why I write such things on my blog,
we need to meet up to thrash things out only. Why? Why do we have to thrash things?
The reason why I was emo wasn't stated out at all. So what can we actually thrash?
At first, it was because all of them changed. & I definitely can't be like them.
But now? They are using what they have changed onto me & I seriously hate it.
I wasn't trying to stir trouble. I just preferred our innocent past. Simple Life.
It's ok, I have 2pals who are on my side and understand what I'm feeling completely.
Maybe things should turn out like this before everyone goes back. Tongue-tied.

5.No more before 18 teenage fun
Mum feeling feeling said she allowed me to pierce my lip 2 weeks ago.
Then now when I remained her, she nag and nag and nag.
And said my dad will beat me till death if I do so. Whatever.
I must get it when 18 and get more mini piercings meanwhile ;P

6.Workload, more and more
Holding onto 2 jobs now. In sales and retail line.
Sales job is ending soon, till 1st week of Jan08.
Converting to Full time for retail next month.
I wasn't given proper training for my retail job.
Most things had to be found out by myself.
Thank god, my retail working friends are pretty friendly.
We do help one another out (but I'm more of a hassle. LOL).
Money is seriously not easy to earn, must save more.
What's the point of spending it before saving it right?
All my LV, Gucci, Chanel obession dreams will be put aside first.
Even if I buy, I must make sure I buy with enough savings left.
Sadness Kor suggesting Bangkok trip next year& im excited!
More Alladin clothes to come with pretty pretty accessories! :D

7. Blue Monochromatic Xmas 2007
Just like every year's xmas. Everything wasn't planned nicely.
But somehow ended up throning &knowing new friends.
This year xmas, no one inform me of any gathering's plan at all,
So I'll just be celebrating with some loves& stil know new friends.
Probably town again. I wanna club but .. (stupid underage law)
& xmas gifts? A big headache. Get it from my boss. Cb.

8.Weight Issues
I used to be a ballet and Chinese Dancer. Unbelieveable I know!
I stil have my Ballet pictures but in Chinese Dance, no one rmbs me ;'(
I gained weight after I quit dancing because my grades dropped in Pri3.
Just nice tgt with puberty. Someone in my workplace suggest me to slim down.
Suggested me to go O School learn dancing; will seriously help .____.
Yvonne & I did wanted to enrol in dancing classes but no confidence eh.
Sadness Kor says he will miss my crystal ball if I succeed.
Learning dancing, sians. Still need money............ Damn it.

9.Emo moments
After Darren Darling left for NS, I can't seem to find anymore else to talk to!
Seriously, over this year, I had lost my ability to speak up, esp in a crowd.
I do admit I'm not as confident as before. There's nth for me to be proud of now.
Yvonne is my best listening ear. Glad she had been with me for so many years.
One of the longest friend I had ever knew& stil in contact with me now.
All my naggings and frustrations, I apologise. But thank you anyway ((:

10.Health issues
Coughing everyday ;'(

11.Lost love
Weirdo's busy playing online game recently.
He's sure gonna get more female friends.
Ahh~ Boohoo..

12.Resolutions
Okay, this is a super duper big problem I'll have to think about..
Lols, visit www.tingturnsviolent.blogspot.com for updates again. ;D

i bruise easily so be gentle when you handle me

2007-12-21T09:03:00.000+08:00

Changed blog song to Natasha Beddingfield's "I Bruise Easily".
Th lyrics is super duper touching (: I love Natasha Bedingfields ;D

My skin is like a map
Of where my heart has been
And I cant hide the marks
Its not a negative thing
So I let down my guard
Drop my defences down by my clothes
I'm learning to fall
With no safety net to cushion the blow

I bruise easily
So be gentle when you handle me
Theres a mark you leave
Like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily
Can't scratch the surface
Without moving me underneath
I bruise easily
I bruise easily

I found your fingerprints
On a glass of wine
Do you know you're leaving them
All over this heart of mine too
But if I never take this leap of faith
I'll never know
So im learning to fall
With no safety net to cushion the blow

[Chorus]

Anyone who can touch you
Can hurt you or heal you
Anyone who can reach you
Can love you or leave you

So be gentle...

[Chorus]

I bruise easily
I bruise easily

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Yesterday was hell for all of us! Customers are wild beast man!
I remembered while folding printed tees, one foreign lady,
nope, one foreign bitch. LOLS. She's a real bitch man!
I was trying to salvage the tees by folding them fast.
It was so messy I had to just fold and ignore th designs first.
Then this bitch.. Every slack I finished folding, guess what?
She laid down th whole slack and took every piece out 1 by 1!
E-V-E-R-Y SLACK, I repeat! Fuck you bitch!
I asked her a lot of times, what she looking for.
Then she shake her head&say, I'll look by myself.
Nabei. All of us think this outlet full of beasts(customers).

Roy was so cute ytd. Hahaaas. I was in the storeroom,
looking for a printed tee with design "Heaven".
So I asked Roy, do you know where's heaven?
Roy replied: "Heaven? I dono where. I just know hell's in S&K".
LOLS, what a funny dude. Ytd cabbed home tgt.
Bobian, 1+am then we knock off. Cabbed tgt with
Sadness Kor, Andy and Roy. Damn tired. Heng,
all the road can be linked. Bangkit, Teckwhye,CCK,Jurong. LOLS.

Just realised I'm not th one who change. Others did.
I remain my stand; not trying to be stubborn here (:

Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you

2007-12-20T12:40:00.000+08:00

Yeah, rebonding's tomorrow! No more curls!
After rebonding, what's next? New hair colour.
I'm ignoring my hair condition and
I'm gonna go all out for a new colour!
Purple Black shall be my base colour,
and cherry pink shall be my second colour!
However, cherry pink will not be my highlight,
im just gonna dye one or two patch of it.
Not sure which part, leave it up to th feel.
Piercing shall be done hopefully before xmas.
Whole new look should be ready by CNY'08.
Hahaas, no more red for CNY, just PINK!
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How would you wanna die?
Tag please!

money money ROLL in (:

2007-12-19T12:27:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates people ;'(
Working at S&K and IP Zone alm everyday.
To earn more money for laptop &stuff.
Next year's probably gonna be a hard one.
When I studying &have no extra money to spend.
Mum will give me daily allowance but it's little,
for anything else, I will have to pay by myself.

Holding two jobs is seriously tiring &it's killing me.
But for the sake of money ;'( everything's worth it.
Hope I will get full return. New song updated,
Mandy Moore & Jonathan Forem's Someday We'll know
Heard this song playing all th time. Pretty nice (:

Andy told me if he were to die, he wanna die uniquely.
Die like no other and hope it will be unexpectedly.
If it's me?
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I wanna disappear and die silently..
What about you?
Tag&let me know (:

Uh ooh, head over heels for you ooh

2007-12-15T09:46:00.000+08:00

Nobody gets it. No one understands ANYTHING.
I didn't tell what's wrong & now they misunderstood.
Misunderstood why I'm emo. Why? Stil don't get it?
It's ok, I hate to explain all these shit. Continue thinking
that I'm childish. I create trouble all th time.
Let it be a mistake forever.

I stood in between th gaps for u & they hate me. Well, now u've gotten everything. im useless to you now.

2007-12-13T17:13:00.000+08:00

I can't scream cuz no one hears me.
So, I guess I'll still shut up.
It's not about being emo anymore.
It's just that I can't fit into that world.
Pretending to so love someone,
pretending to care for one who is forgotten,
and even doing everything with a motive.

Okay, It's me, I can't accept this ruthless world.
I can't go against my conscience at all. It's just me.
If you really know me well, this is me.
And nothing's gonna change me.
People out there can call me stubborn,
what about calling yourself a beast?
A cold-blooded, hypocritical beast.

My blog, a place where I express myself.
My blog is just as imperfect as me,
don't expect nice stories all th time.
Cuz' those were th past & im supposed
to find a future for my present..

i felt those ear candies again. liar. fucked-up.

2007-12-11T17:52:00.000+08:00

have u received it? LOLS.

fuckedup

living life to th fullest (:

2007-12-09T20:39:00.000+08:00

Bro's working at Starhub Roadshow, head to Town to find him.
Tgt with my family and relatives. My aunt's hospitalised ;'(
Was in Ngee Ann City and guess what we saw? LOLS!
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SESAME STREET!

Didn't manage to get a good shot because it's super crowded!

Had a chat with weirdo last night.
Weirdo'd fallen in love with someone alr.
&& I wasn't really sad.
I do hope I'm not hiding my feelings.
But somehow I would rather weirdo be happy(:
I'm sad; not over this love thing.
But cause everything's back to square one..
I do hope things will be better (:

vanishing points of my life; oh please learn to appreciate ARTS ;D

2007-12-08T13:57:00.000+08:00

Was at Bugis, Esplanade & Suntec with my coursemates (:
Ivan that chap treated us to Starbucks! Thanks dude ;D
Aft th course, our perspection of objects are so different now. I mean,
all of us felt th difference when looking at exhibition @ Esplanade ytd.
And I see vanishing points everywhere now. Life's just an ART.
Wonderful time with Esther, Ying, Mildred, Ivan, YiKun.
Stay close, my lovely girls and guys ;D

Greet my new house phone, people!

no one bother to tell. ok, im a loser. i hate myself.

2007-12-05T18:25:00.000+08:00

Today was lesson 3! Having great fun with th girls (:

Remember? I blogged this picture ytd?
I drew it out today using warm colours.
Freehand totally. No measurements at all ;D
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i did my best alr. but it was satisfying.
So I wanted to just share with my blogders (:

its only fair for th world to be unfair

2007-12-03T18:53:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was Day 1 of my Portfolio workshop @ LaSalle.
My D&T folio was disaster so I joined this pre-interview course.
Only 10 students in class but there were better focus of course.

Was trained to observe and draw contours with charcoal. Interesting.
Never done before so there was so much excitment among us.
One of my coursemate, QiaoZhen said I resemble someone frm NP.
What th hell. Do I seriously have common face? Hais, I don't want !!
But there will definitely be something different, I'm a weirdo. Lols.

Only one home assignment which is an 150 words essay question.
I chose an artist, Jason Ensor. Someone who draws emo portraits.
His drawings are unique, 2 of my other coursemates chose th same image.
Tmr is perpective drawing (: Gonna have great fun with my coursemates ;D

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Today is Day 2 of my Portfoilio workshop @ LaSalle.
Took photos are my belongings when I'd reached early.

Did one point perspective drawing with th girls & had a great time (:
1st picture is what I drew ytd for pure & cross contour drawing.
Middle is a Martel bottle with Vodka and wines around it ;D
2nd is a photo of Level2 bridge. 3rd is my perspective drawing of it.
I did it the fastest. I stil rmb what my Sec1 Art Teacher, Ms Tan taught. Lol.
2nd &3rd photo different cos I drew frm what I see, not by th photo.

After class, went photoshoot of theme, "CityScape" @ Bugis.
Quite diffifult to get goodshot because people avoid camera. Lols.
Look at this two hyper-active coursemates of mine:

Hahaas. Our two girls in The Two Compass. Hahaas.

On bus home, met a pervert. He's a middle aged European man.
At bus stop, sat bside me and kept smiling and looking at me.
I was shocked he boarded th same bus as me. I went to th back of bus.
And sat beside a girl at th last corner. That pervert sat beside me.
Then th girl bside me wants to alight. Bus so empty, he made me squeeze.
Squeeze to let her get off th bus. That stupid pervert doesn't want to move.
Then I sat inside, to the corner. He didn't move it. I was so relieved.
Called Si Ming to tell her something. Then when I turned to look at him,
you guess what he's doing? He was with pants but he faced the dick at me,
And he put his hands behind me, on the railing. And gave me a sickening smile.
I had no choice. I woke th guy that is sleeping infront of me then asked him
if he can help me cos there's a pervert bside me. He act like my boyfriend. Lols.
He wanted to alight at interchange but he alighted with me & walked home.
I'm sorry that I woke u up but thank you so much for helping me, i-dont-know-ur-name. LOL.

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Seen my title? Yup, it's only fair for the world to be unfair.
Afterall, I am just someone who hides a lot from reality.
Cause.. Reality is cruel? I understand why hatred exist.

For someone insignificant like me, I remain my stand.
I believe afterall, there's hate but no point hating anything.
Cause it's REALITY that causes this world to despise someone like me.

Someone trying to impact but turned out to be laughing stock.
Someone trying to do things like anyone else but rejected.
Someone trying to express but gets mistaken all the time.
Someone who never knows when th next stab will come.
Someone who expects little when world expects more.
Someone who doesn't look perfect && gets mocked.
Someone who gets mocked even by ur best friend.
Someone who never wanted things complicated.
Someone who gets hurt but kept numb about it.
Someone who hides in order not to hurt others.
Someone who helps but ended up being hated.
Someone who wanted to live like anyone else.
Someone who prayed for lesser cruel reality.
Someone who simply wanted a better life.

I believe im not th only one who felt like this.
I believe im not th only one who escapes reality.
Reality is cruel. It makes wrong things turn right and vice versa.
Reality bans you from having a thought, expressing yourself.
Please don't tell me it's not true if you'd never experience it before.
Please don''t try to understand me when I don't even understand myself.
Probably God didn't even know why he created me.
Probably my parents don't even know why i exist.
Probably I'm like an extra in every scene/story.
Probably I'm to waste Earth's resources.
Probably I just need to live, wait & die.
Probably I'm just a passerby.
Probably I'm born to suffer.
Probably I shouldn't exist.
Probably I still have to.

At least I can be given a one-word description.
Read this, I'm just nothing.

Happened to me in family, just because I'm a girl.
I can't do this, can't do that, I only got my Barbie Dolls on bdays.
From th day I knew things, I knew my parents are realistic.
Verbally, they said they agreed that my brother is overpampered by Granny.
But behind our back, they spoil him even more. PSP, games, phone bills..
Can u imagine a 20yr old, eldest in big family but with no working experience?
From young, I was forced to do a lot of helping in house chores.
Just because I'm the eldest among girls && my bro just play all his life.
From Sec1 till now, I can only use internet for 1hour over supervision.
They can come up with a million excuses why he can use internet for longer time.
When he goes DOTA battlenet all time and PPLE ALWAYS FIRST BLOOD HIM! SHAMEFUL!
Such a loser. He can just unplug ur charger when it's in usage & doesn't bother t say.
Yeah, one whole night and u realised u actually charged NOTHING. Fuck you CBK.
Aft he got into NS, mum always praise how he can stil survive with 300 per month.
I don't believe ok! Stil got money to buy laptop, branded, go out every weekend.
I hate my Granny a lot cause I ever saw her put money inside my bro's wallet.
& my parents can't be bothered. I'm straight forward in words & they hate me for that.
My 2 sisters are much wiser. They always like to sweet talk my parents.
My parents dote on them of course. BUt I find it so digusting t get in good books.
It was never my style to sweet talk someone to get such attention at all.
This Granny boy never paid for his phone bills, never even paid for license.
I hope you'll get impotent someday& by then I'm sure they won't dote u anymore!
Fuck off you useless bum! I'm born unlucky but at least I'm not sissy like you!
My parents would never pay for my clothes unless it's under offer, even if it looks ugly.
Him? They give him money to buy clothes! What the HELL! Hope you die fast!
Yeah, I'm tired. Just trying to vent out. It's 4.48am now. B'cs of that sissy,
I had to blog all of these in notepad and wake up so early. I hate home so fking much.
I wanna run away frm home. Who wants to lend me a pillow..?

Remembered my wrist slanting times in Sec school days.
I never like using a penknife. Blood gushes out too fast.
&& it hurts psycologically just because u see blood.
I used my mini friend instead- Stapler bullet.
Th skin gets ripped off, hurts when contact with air.
One more slant down, you can see slightly ur veins.
One more slant down, you can see a little come out.
One more slant down, hmm, probably not deep enough.
Trills of slanting. Feel th pain first bfore u see thick blood.
Ok, this hurts. And take longer time to heal than penknife.

No worries, I won't waste my time slanting my wrist.
No point hurting myself more thru self abuse when i look ugly enough.
So if you feel that this world is unfair, think about me.
Cos' reality is never gonna be sorry about what it'd ever done to me.
And there will always be something more pleasant
that reality's gonna give you than it would rather give to me (:

To conclude, my biggest enemy is not myself; it is REALITY.
Hey there, I'm gonna give u th most suitable handsign to describe you!
__l__ Please fuck off and die. LOL.

Random pictures:

scream me a love song

2007-12-01T11:34:00.000+08:00

Life's pretty boring. I wanna club!
I don't drink so hope I can burn calories frm it!
Mummy says if I improve my health,
she allow night life& night job for me.
Sians. Ear candies also! Hate it!

Who knows, after that, she say not good for body.
Who don't know her pattern more than badminton.
It's either I do smth to improve or take medication.
Take medication will cause reliance on th drug.
Doing smth about will take a fucking long time.

Guess, I just have to do smth about it and
await my 18th birthday when I'll throw my IC
at the bouncer's face and say:
"Just because I'm short, it doesn't mean im underage!
Remember my face and don't make me show my IC again!"
Hohoho. No bouncer said that to me before.
Sneaking into clubs underage is so mafun.
Need to find IC, need to act matured when I'm so short.

Nevermind, Darren Darling say girl short then good.
Hahaas. Who cares what other pple will think right?
I love to be short although I tend to smell odours
in MRT trains, bus. ;'( no offence. heehee...!

how did i get here with you
i will never know
never meant to let it get so personal
after all I'd tried to do
To stay away from loving you
I'm broken hearted
I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

family doesn't spells L-O-V-E at all

2007-11-30T10:14:00.000+08:00

English version of the Ninth Night by Coco Lee

Feelin' like I'm dreaming
Strolling near that beach
After that goodbye said
we drift much apart

Thought it's so encouraging
Didn't really want you to forget everything
Forgotten that I'd to return back to the real me

I left my brave front down before I returned
Nowhere left to go
Complete disappointed.

At this ninth night
me without you
I finally felt the loneliness
Over this period
All my feelings shown
were just my brave front

After the ninth night
I wanted to use my everything
in exchange for the world I had 10 days ago,.
Wanted to but what I see from the window was purely darkness.

AT THIS NINTH NIGHT
ME WITHOUT YOU
I FINALLY ADMIT I FEEL LONELY
OVER THIS PERIOD
ALL MY FEELINGS SHOWN
WERE JUST MY BRAVE FRONT

AFTER THE NINTH NIGHT
I FINALLY UNDERSTOOD
HAPPINESS BELONGED ONLY 10 DAYS AGO
MISSING THIS WORLD BUT IT HAD TURNED TO DARKNESS.

ur words are poison to me, killer 21

2007-11-29T18:03:00.000+08:00

life's pretty boring nowadays.
wanted so much to learn vball.
but my rashes are irritating me.
what th hell right _l_

things aint going smoothly for me nowadays.
friendship, love life, family, health. However,
I just got myself a god-daddy, hohoho. LAU PA~!

At times, I hate myself.
Sometimes, ignorance is seriously a bliss.
But whenever I tried to get things better,
it got worse.
I'm just being random.

I'm looking forward to my piercing soon.
Getting a new job for 2008.
Got a few in mind.

Gonna work hard for future.
Laptop, DSLR camera, makeup,
clothes, tattoo, piercing, my own room.
Yup, planning to rent a room when I'm older.
My house is seriously too small for
8 members, 1 dog, 3 tortoises, 5 birds.

I'm leaving T* for now. (i hope so)
Good luck for ur draftmatch tday (:
you're stil the sweetest drug,
but I mus stil learn how t shake u off
it's addictive, you know..
and I hope it's not that painful.
I dreamt of you again.
It was a half dream, shyt,
can someone tell me what it means?

i hate to love. but i would love to hate.

2007-11-27T17:09:00.000+08:00

Mum's sudden urge to eat fondue just now =s

this love of mine refused to reveal her name ;DD

i love this bear from BIG SWEET LAND!
can someone get it for me? lols!

i suck. yes, i suck. im a loner. fucked up.

2007-11-24T09:46:00.000+08:00

She doesn't want to take photos ;'(

My kids playing "Pass The Message".

my sweetest sin?

2007-11-20T17:55:00.000+08:00

Went to some kuku marketplace near farmart.
A lot of pets and stuff. It's so disgusting.
There are many earthworms on the floor!
or millipede or centipede or WHATEVER!
It's just so fking disgusting & some were stepped dead ._.

Woo~ Look at this giantic fish!
It has yet to grown to the wholest size.

I wanna take tons of eyeliner to prepare for th coming year.
Lols. My life's so boring. I wanna go clubbing. Burn calories :x

everything cause I love you

2007-11-17T12:43:00.000+08:00

She's mine. Hahahaas ;D

Eh, I didn't steal your girlfriend!

Opps =x

Went to Causeway Point for dinner with her.
Had SAKAE Sushi buffet for dinner ;))
Went to TIMEZONE, won jackpot of 75 tickets.
Redeem drinks and this! I wasted a lot. I forgot how to blow it ;(

Finally!

More to come!

Taken with my students @ CreativeLand CCk Crescent (:
Lazy upload those from camera. My cam is super lousy :x
These kids are really adorable but NAUGHTY sometimes..

Went to Alex's Birthday Party @ Ark Safra Town Club Clarke Quay.
A lot of his friends which I don't know. We belong to AJ-C group ;P
Taken with Roy Kor @ Train. I wished my body was so long..

Acting Str8 (Layss & Brian) @ Safra Town Club. Lols.

Some photos taken with friends at th celebration.

Lol. Guess what? I didn't take any single photo with the birthday boy.
Ok, I'll take it next time. I have his link at the links corner. Click "Alex".
Will be going there next Wednesday again for Xiao Ah Zai's birthday.
Layss said we were told to go, see you guys there (:

I want my lip piercing bfore christmas! I'm getting it free ;x
Ah~ I miss weirdo ;'( ok, this is so retarded. Whatever~

nothing gets ever sweetest and that's you
2007-11-14T11:16:00.000+08:00
ur mms is th only thing that cheered me up this period.
yes, i told you I will work hard to give up on you.
i wasn't supposed to even fall in love with you.
time will be my best medicine (:

did medicure at Citybella for $5.35 only!
35 cents is GST .. lols.
painted my nails black BLack BLACKK ;DD

had been a busy week, doing lots of reflections..
waking up @ 7 just to go Holland f breakfast..
went to pool & klunch with liu liu ma ma,
went town with my family, china-TOWN(i mean)..
somephotos to upload here(it's been a week!)

how to play like that ..

Candy Machine; our new craze. lols!
yes, I'm childish!!!

back t square one

2007-11-11T10:18:00.000+08:00

carrying on gets me no where.
speaking up gets me in trouble.
loving on makes me lost.

had a sudden urge t end everything.
hope things will get worse til i see my shrink.
so i guess im back t square one.
im sick of expressing everything.